Something to ponder upon (Heard it from CSI last night. Quite interesting. Go on, read it. It won't hurt):


gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 1:40 AM

Kasama 'to dun sa e-mail nung shiftee ng Behsci blk. 8 ata. Interesting thought... Take a look...

"If you would give your soul to save someone, give an ounce of blood to keep them from sadness and take your life before you considering living without them, that is not love. It is something more, for love already has a place in the dictionary, it has been defined as: 'strong affection, warm attachment, to cherish'. By trying to describe it, we have limited its meaning, devalued it. So I shall not say 'love' because love is no longer what I feel, it is something more, grander, deeper, all consuming, and more profound, but this feeling has no name, and let us not try to name or define it, because I wish not another feeling to be lost to the arrogance of the human race, a species who thinks they can decipher everything, I do not wish this emotion to be lost to a page in a dictionary." (simulacrum_slx001@yahoo.com)
gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 1:17 AM

Someone passed this story to me through E-mail. This will give you goosebumps and make you think a little.

The Candle

Diane, a young university student, was home for the summer.
She had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year.
She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone.
She wasn't afraid because it was a small town, and she lived only a few blocks away.
As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger.

When she reached the alley, which was a short-cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley, she noticed a man standing at the end as though he were waiting for her.
She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection.
Instantly, a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped around her, she felt as though someone was walking with her.
When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely.

The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there.
Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep.
Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station.
She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story.
The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him.
She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before.
When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed.

The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her.
She asked if they would ask the man one question.
Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her.
When the policeman asked him, he answered: "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her."

Moral of the story: Don't underestimate the power of Prayer! Gives you goosebumps, doesn't it!
gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 1:02 AM

How do you do it?
How do you get into people's life and make them love you as if nothing else matters?
How did you make sure this time it's my life?
How do you make me attracted to you without you doing anything special?
How do reason become of no importance when it comes to you?

How come I saw you amongst anyone?
How come you singled yourself out of the crowd?
However did you catch my attention?

How can I see you everyday as someone new?
How can you make me laugh without even trying to do so?
How can you make me wait for in fact I don't want to?
How can you make me do things I normally won't do?
How can you make me say things I don't like to say?
How can you make everything ok even if it's not?

How do I endure pain if it means being with you?
How do you scare away my fears?
How do you wipe my tears dry?
How do you make me smile?
How do you make my heart beat faster every time you're around?
How do you take my exhaustion away?

How can you make me like your talking?
How can you make me like your choice of words?
How can you make me like your walking?
How can you make me like your singing out of tune?
How can you make me like your mannerisms?
How can you make me like your clothing?
How can you make me like your nagging?
How can you make me like your shouting?
How can you make me like your hitting?
How can you just make me like you so much?

How can you make me shut up?
How can you make me listen?
How can you do it?
How can you do things no one else could?

I can ask how's and however's forever
But however things are
I can care less
'Cause what's important is
Things are the way they're supposed to be

So, anyway, how can you make me fall in love with you everyday?

(para kay dhin. happy monthsary!)


gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 8:20 PM

gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 6:20 PM

Sinong makakapagsabing walang malas sa mundo? Sino? Mapabaril sa Luneta!

Grabe nangyari sa akin kahapon ng maghapon. Sobrang araw ng kamalasan 'yun. Ayaw n'yo maniwala? Well, to hear is to believe.

1) Magkikita dapat kami ni Dhin ng 10am sa SM Pala Pala. So ngpa-alarm ako ng 7:30, gamit ang cellphone ko. Mangyaring ginising ako ni Mama kinabukasan, 8am na. Hinanap ko cellphone ko, nadaganan ko pala. Kala ko 'di tumunog. Tumunog pala, 'di nga lang siguro nakahinga, kaw ba naman, daganan.

2) Tinext ko si Dhin, sabi ko malelate ako. Ok lang daw. Nauna na umalis si Mama, pupunta siya sa EPZA. Nag-iwan siya ng 500, papalitan ko na lang daw sa tindahan para may barya akong pamasahe. Mga 5 minutes before 10, pumunta na ako ng tindahan. Kay Nana (tita ko) dapat ako magpapapalit, kaya lang wala daw siyang barya. So, pinabili niya ako ng keso sa katabing tindahan, para mabaryahan pera ko. Babayaran niya na lang daw sa akin 'yung keso kaya dumiretso na akong tindahan. 'Pag dating ko don, ang daming tao. Bago pa ako nakabili, 10:20 na ata.

3) Pumunta na ako sa kanto. Sa loob-loob ko, sa Tejero na lang ako sasakay para mabilis. Pero dahil madalas ay traffic papunta don, ayaw magsakay ng mga tricycle na pinapara ko. Kung kailan naman nagmamadali, tsaka nag-inarte ang mga mamang drayber. Matapos ang isang dekada, nakasakay din ako.

4) Habang nasa tricycle, mga 10:30 na non, nagtext na si Dhin, nasa SM na raw siya. Sa may Umboy, traffic. Pinapauna 'yung mga galing sa Salinas at sa Bacao. Kala ko saglit lang, pero pansin ko, 'yung buong kalsada, sakop na nila. Parang one way 'yung highway (Wow! rhyming).

5) Ang tagal, mga 15 minutes na ang nakalipas nang magsalita si Manong drayber, "boy, baka gusto mo nang maglakad. Matagal pa 'to." At agad kong inabot ang P50 ko. "O ayan, matigil ka lang," sabihin ko sana kaya lang nagtimpi na lang ako. Takot ako e.. He he he..

6) E 'di naglakad ako, tutal malapit na sa kanto. Dun na lang ako sasakay ng jeep hanggang Tejero. Mga 10 hakbang na lang, mararating ko na ang kanto, nang biglang pumito si Manong Pulis. Wala ng mga sasakyang galing sa EPZA at Bacao. Nagsimula ng umandar ang mga sasakyang kanina'y kinabibilangan ng tricycle na sinasakyan ko. Muntik na akong mainis kay Manong drayber.

7) Pinaandar na rin ang mga jeep na galing Maragondon, Ternate, Naic, 'yung mga papuntang EPZA at Bacao naman. Para makapunta ng Tejero, kailangan kong tumawid. Ang probelma nga lang. Sakop na naman ng mga sasakyan ang buong kalsada. Naghintay ako sa tamang pagkakataon. Doon muna ko sa lilim.

8) Habang naghihintay, may biglang tumawid. Pagkakataon ko na rin, pero 'di agad ako nakalakad. Parang nabigla ako. Sa madaling-sabi, hindi ako nakatawid.

9) Naghintay akong muli. Awa ng Diyos, nakatawid naman ako matapos ang kulang-kulang 15 minutes din 'yun. Sa kabila, naghintay ako ng sasakyang Bacao ang ruta. Maraming dumadaan pero 'di ko mabasa ung sign board. Nako, 'di ko pala dinala salamin ko. Dapat kasi sa Tejero na ang baba ko, at least don, nakaparada mga jeep. Namumuro na talaga sa 'kin si Manong drayber.

10) Biglang nagpipipito ang mga pulis. Ayaw patigilin ang mga sasakyan para magsakay ng pasahero. Buseeet!!! Lumipat na lang ako sa kabila, don walang pulis. At nakasakay din ako ng jeep na Bacao. Ang iniiiit!

11) At nakarating din ako ng Tejero. Punta agad ako paradahan. Aba 11am na. Ang sabi ko kay Dhin, by that time nasa SM na ko. Sa paradahan, sa tingin ko ay halos puno na 'yung jeep na nauuna. Sabi ko, "ok 'to. Kahit makisiksik na lang. Ang mahalaga, makaalis agad." Nang makalapit ako dun sa jeep, aba, binirahan ba naman ng alis. Puno na pala, apaw pa nga kamo...

12) Sumakay ako sa bagong jeep, ako pa lang, magpupuno pa. Buti medyo mabilis, pero kumain pa rin ng oras. Past 11 na. May ugat na mahal ko. May sumakay na may malaking bag. Ok lang, minsan naman ako ang may dala ng malaking bag e. Sa akin tumabi, ok lang din. Tumatabi rin naman ako sa ibang tao 'pag may dala akong malaking bag. Ok na sana e, kaya lang pag singhot ko... Waaaaah!!!

13) Umandar na ang jeep sa wakas. Lumiko na, Gen Tri ang daan. Tik tak tik tak, papunta na akong dasma. Tik tak tik tak, nakalayo din ng Tejero. Tik tak tik tak, at nagpa-GAS si Manong. Kung kelan naman nagmamadali.

14) Sa jeep, may napansin akong kanina ko pang hawak. Tungeks!! Susi ng bahay nadala ko. Naalala ko bigla ang text ng mama ko, iwn mo suc sa wm. WM, washing machine ibig sabihin non. Paano na 'yun papasok ng bahay?

15) Sa SM, kasama si Dhin at sina Mama (shortcut na 'to), papabutas kami ni Dhin ng tenga sa Unisilver. Nakapamili na ng hikaw, nabayaran na. Bubutasan na kami, sabi ko siya muna kasi kinakabahan ako, he he he... Aba, biglang 'di pala pwede sa itaas na bahagi ng tenga. Sa malalambot na parte lang daw. Nang ang malas ay maging epidemya.

16) Pauwi na kami nina Mama at Raymond. Sumakay kami ng jeep papauntang Trece. Sa byahe, medyo pagewang-gewang na ako. Antok e. Maya maya, nang mamulat ako, nakatigil na ang jeep. Wala pa naman sa Trece. 'Di agad ako nakapagtanong pero kinutuban na ako. At tama nga ang kutob, nasiraan si Manong. Pheeew!

17) Sa Trece, nakasakay na kami papuntang Tanza. Nang sa tingin ko'y puno na, biglang sumigaw ang barker, "o, dalawa pa!" Dalawa pa nga naman, dalawang tingting. Nanggalaiti nanay ko, sugapa nga naman si Manong.

18) Sa bahay, kaninang bago mag-hatinggabi, nasira ang blog ko. Kung saan-saan mo makikita ang mga posts. Parang ito. Ewan ko kung mabasa mo 'to ng ayos.

Sino ngayon ang makakapagsabing walang malas sa mundo? Handa na ang Luneta...

Pahabol Sulat: Nag-iisa lang naman swerte sa buhay ko e. Ang Tocy ko. Ang Droga ko. Ang Dhin ko. (kilig kilig)

[For more information regarding "Kamalasan", refer to an entry entitled "Ang Hirap ng Exam sa MicroBio", dated 30 Aug 2004, found in Max' blogsite (see my Links)]


gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 5:15 PM

ERAP nsa likod ni
FVR sa pila sa
ATM...







ERAP:haha! Alam
ko na pin m0.








FVR: an0?










ERAP:apat na asterisk.








wahahaha!u


Sender:
Kat
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Sent:
23-Mar-2005
12:27:15
gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 12:56 PM

Q: How do you stop yourself from falling?

A: Tanga ka ba? You can't. Yung mga taong nagsabing nakagawa non, nagkakamali sila. Akala lang nila they were falling, pero ang totoo, hindi. Kaya nga falling e. Kelan ba biglang lumutang ang isang bagay na bumabagsak??

BLAG!!! = (
gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 11:11 PM

i had my ear pierced
masakit, nakakagulat
with all the mixed emotions
something is satisfied
curiousity, ego
not of much importance
but somewhat made me happy
let me be happy
just this ?twice?
gallahad06 wrote a suicide note on 6:28 AM

NOTE:

Tapos na ang lahat. Matapos ang mahabang usapan, natapos din ang hirap ng loob naming dalawa. Naghiwalay kami ngayong gabi na walang sama ng loob sa isa't isa. Inintindi namin ang gustong ipahiwatig naming pareho. Natapos ang gulo, natapos ang bangayan. Pareho kaming sumuko. Pareho kaming natalo. Pero pareho din kaming nagwagi.

Pero hindi ako malungkot, dahil hindi kami naghiwalay. Kami pa rin, at ayos na ang problema. Ngayon ko lang ulit naramdaman ang ganito kasaya. Na bawat luhang nangilid sa mga mata ko, 'di ko pinagsisihan, ngayon pang nagbunga na ang lahat. Para akong nabunutan ng tinik. Kung gaano kabigat ang pakiramdam nitong mga nakaraang araw, ganon naman kagaan ngayon. Para akong nakadroga, lumulutang.